The Amazing Power of Reframing Your Experiences

For a very long time, I was unable to connect with God’s love for me. I knew that it had to exist. I strongly believed that other people could have it, but I could not. There was a reason, but it took a long time to find it. Eventually, I realized that I had an old belief that there was a test and that I had failed it. The test was that you got hurt as a child and still kept your heart open. Then, I believed, you deserved God’s love. If you closed your heart, then clearly you were not good enough. What broke this awful spell was a reframing of the meaning of my experiences. I HAD closed my heart, but I was able to reframe it as something very difficult that I had done, something completely contrary to my true nature, out of deep OBEDIENCE to God. That is, I had agreed to do this so that I could have the experiences that I needed to have and provide what was needed at the time to other people in my life. It does not matter, really, whether this is objectively provable or not. This reframing of my old belief turned my perception of myself as being a complete failure into seeing myself as someone who not only deserved God’s love but was in fact an agent of it. The result was an immediate and enduring access to the energy of love.

Recently, my ex-husband shared something with me and gave me permission to incorporate it into a column. It is another wonderful example of the power of this reframing of an old belief to free us from our old programs. Here is what he wrote.
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I have been struggling with how to proceed with my problem of the dysfunction of the spiritual group I am involved in. As I was meditating last night, I suddenly became aware of me saying “I just do not want to hurt Jane” (the leader of the group). I suddenly realized that I have been saying “I do not want to hurt anyone” a lot, but this time I became aware of it at a deeper level. I realized, how much I have lived with that mantra, and that it started with me as a little child not wanting to hurt Mom and how everything I did (well, not everything but a lot of things) seemed to hurt her.

Then I asked myself, can I really hurt Jane or anyone for that matter? Even though I had answered that question many, many times as “No, I cannot hurt her, she alone is responsible for her feelings”, the answer seems to have come from my head rather than my being. It did not shift my old belief. This time it seemed to have gone in deeply. Most of the other times, it always went back to, “Alright, I cannot hurt her but I can trigger her and I do not want to trigger her” This time when I went there, God said “Why not? If I want you to trigger her, would you not want to do it for me and if I do not want her to be triggered, then do you think you can?” God then said, “Yes, it is a good thing to not want to trigger or hurt others, but now, that part is over and you need to live your life without the fear of hurting or triggering anyone. You are a gentle person and you will not intentionally hurt anyone and when anyone does get triggered, it is because that is what I want for them. I need you live your life free of this fear of triggering others”.

I then realized that this old belief that it was wrong to trigger others had resulted in my feeling completely betrayed every time someone else triggered me.

I got up around 6:30, had my coffee and then got on my treadmill. As I began to exercise, I realized my breathing was much deeper (still is) and I could feel the air go deep into my lungs. I realized that the low grade asthma that I have been carrying seemed to have gone away. At a recent spiritual retreat, I was deeply struck by Jane’s saying “Asthma is definitely a psychosomatic problem,” and I kept wondering at that time about that “psychosomatic” thing was that was getting me and nothing had come to me yet. Struggling with asthma had made me aware of how God’s love is like air, it is everywhere but if I cannot breathe it in, it is of no use to me. I need to let God’s love in and try to remove obstacles that keep me from breathing that love into my being”. I had shared this at the retreat.

It suddenly occurred to me that not wanting to hurt others was the obstacle that was keeping me from breathing in God’s love for me. Then my memory went back to the time when I was about a year old and I could not breathe. The village doctor thought I had pneumonia and later it was diagnosed as eosinophilia. That was the first time I remember having trouble breathing. Later when I was about six years old, we went to a hill station for a family function, I remember I had caught a chill and could not stop shivering. I realized that when I get an asthma attack, I have similar sensations. I realized that all those times, it was probably me stuffing down the feeling of not wanting to hurt Mom that brought about those sensations. I could now feel real compassion for that little kid who simply did not want to hurt his mother.

Maybe my asthma will simply come back at an appropriate time for another lesson, but the lessons I got today are quite valuable no matter what happens in the future.
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I was deeply touched by this huge healing, by the reframing of the old belief of being responsible for others feelings and expecting them to be responsible for ours into accepting that we are not and they are not, because that is not what God wants for us. Since the only thing we can choose is the meaning that we give things, perhaps you too can use reframing to let go of some of the old beliefs that result in guilt and shame. Maybe you too can try reframing your actions as playing your role, as part of working with God, as having the experiences that your soul needs to have and providing what is needed to other people in your life.

The Sweetness of Being Received

Recently, because his significant other was out of town, I spent some time with my ex-husband. It was an experience of unbelievable sweetness, unlike any I had ever had. It left my filled and happy, but ultimately craving more and then feeling very sad because I could not have it more. The intense sadness I was feeling told me that I was getting something from him that I was not giving myself but probably could.

As I tuned into what it was, I realized that during most of the time that I was with him, I felt completely received. His heart was open to me and mine to him. He was interested in everything I shared and I was interesting in everything he shared. Nothing happened to interrupt that. It was so easy to stay in the moment. What a contrast to when we were married and each of us struggled to be received by the other!

Staying in the moment. That was key. I suddenly saw how completely devoted I am to trying to have control of being received. That rather than receiving myself or others, I have been living just a fraction of the second in the future focused on whether I am being received by others. I have confused being entertaining and capturing others’ interest with getting what I really need, and when I could not pull this off, I have not really understood why it felt so horrible. I had an image of a heart with a jagged crack so that part of it was always shifted out of line.

When my feelings come up strongly, I don’t have any trouble showing up for them. I don’t say overtly horrible things to myself. I have healed many of my false beliefs. I believe in being kind and compassionate to myself, but suddenly I had a moment of clarity where I saw how I am not staying with myself in real time. I could see that trying to have control over being received by others was the same thing as not receiving myself. That I stay slightly ahead of myself by going into my head. That having an incredibly fast mind, a blessing in so many ways, is also my greatest challenge. I saw how by staying slightly ahead of myself, I was telling my little girl that I am not really interested in what she says because it is not important enough and that trying to have control over being received was far more important. No wonder she is so sad.

I checked with God. When I imagined God as a being outside me, present and interested in everything I say and totally receiving me, I immediately got the feeling of sweetness but it felt like then I giving my little girl to God without changing my own attitudes. When I checked with the God within, I became the sweetness. But somehow, my wounded self was still operating from the belief that what I am experiencing is not interesting or important. I checked with guidance again and this is what I was told “I am totally interested in your experiences because you are an integral part of the creative process of the universe. Your experiences, your sensations are integral to the whole.”

So now I get it, at least on a deeper level. By not staying connected to myself in the real time present, I am refusing to participate in the grand scheme. I can reframe this, my feelings, my real time experiences as a sacred process of great importance. I can understand that fulfilling my purpose does not only come from what I do to bring divine love to others, how I make others feel, but that it comes from accepting, fully accepting, the importance of every moment of my human experience. As long as I remember this, I think I can learn to do it

PS to punishment

As I absorb the implications of this article about deservign to be punished, I begin to realize that anytime I tried to make someone else “wrong,” this was coming from the same wounded part of me that believes that it is okay to use shame and blame. Offering wanted information is completely different. Helping people during Inner Bonding sessions when they want to know what is going on is different, but any other time that I was telling anyone what they should do or what is wrong, even if I was completely right, is a subtle way of shaming them. I have mostly learned to ask “Do you want to know what I am picking up?” but I think that writing this has given me a deeper awareness of how unacceptable this really is.

Do You Believe That You Deserve to be Punished?

When I was a child and I did something that was “bad” enough, I was hit or spanked. I did not question it. I was told and believed that I “deserved it.” I decided long ago that it is not acceptable to hit a child or anyone else; that I would never do it, and my inner child has every confidence that I would NEVER allow anyone to hit her now.

Other times, I was simply yelled at. Again I did not question it and believed that I had done something to “deserve” it. It took me a bit longer to realize that no one deserve to be yelled at either. It is no longer something I would no longer do, and my inner child knows that I would never made her stay there and listen to someone yell at her.

Mostly though, I was shamed and blamed. I did not question that either, of course. It has taken much, much longer to realize that even if I have done something that someone does not like, even if they are “right” about it, e.g., I was late after all, they do not have the right to shame and blame me. I do not have to listen to it. I might be willing to have a conversation about it, but shaming and blaming me is out.

I find that this is a huge issue for many people. When I ask them to tune and ask their inner child how he or she feels when someone is shaming and blaming them (on the inner or outer level), they say that they feel like they are being beaten up. If I ask them if they would allow someone to physically beat their child, they usually say, “No, of course not.” Yet they are allowing their child to be beaten up by believing that it is okay for someone to do this to them when they are in the “wrong”.

So let’s address the false belief here. Even if someone is “right” about something, if someone on the inside or outside has a “legitimate-seeming” criticism (e.g., you are overweight, you should take their advice and you don’t), that does not mean that they have the right to beat your inner child up, just as whatever you did as a child did not give your parents the right to hurt you. Your parents were blaming you for their feelings because they did not know how to take care of their own inner kids. It was never about what you did. Your wounded self learned it from them.

Keeping your inner child safe then means taking the job of never allowing anyone to hurt him or her, not to hit, not to yell, not to shame and blame. It means refusing to engage in conversations with people who are telling you what is wrong with you and trying to make you feel bad enough so that you will change. It means gently and compassionately stopping your own wounded self from trying to make you okay by doing that on the inner level.

On the outer level it means setting a boundary. A boundary is not about trying to change someone else, it is about taking care of yourself. It is about noticing that your child is getting beaten up and saying “I will not have this kind of conversation with you. Can we talk about something else?” and being willing to hang up the phone or leave if the beatings do not stop.

Mostly though it is about knowing, on the deepest level, that NO ONE has the right to do this to you. Even if they get upset with you for refusing to allow it and try harder, even if they threaten to leave you, you do not give them the right to do it. You do not sacrifice your child. Your inner child never deserved to be punished, to be beaten in any way. Your child needs you to say that starting now you are totally committed to learning how to make sure that this never happens to him or her again.

Spiritual Connection or Spiritual Bypass?

I used to belong to a spiritual community, a place where I would go to weekly Reiki healing circles. This community also regularly invited “highly enlightened” spiritual teachers to come and give talks and workshops. Each one had dedicated years to their spiritual practices and each offered the way to true enlightenment and connection with God. At first I would wonder what was wrong with me, because everyone else seemed so enchanted and I was clearly not getting it. Indeed, I have had this experience repeatedly over the years. Gradually, I realized that what was true of each of these teachers was that I could not “feel” them at all. They were not present. If that was where their practice would lead, it was not something I could believe in.

In contrast this, I remember as I write this column, going to hear Margaret Paul, the co-founder of Inner Bonding speak at an Association of Humanistic Psychology conference in Indianapolis, a 4-hour drive from here. It was 1992, I think. I had just read “Healing Your Aloneness” and I wanted to find out if she was the real deal. Looking back, what was different was that I could feel her. She was present, connected to herself and maybe that is why what she offered felt right to me.

Margaret Paul has written about the spiritual bypass as a form of spiritual addiction, a way to escape our feelings by connecting with God and that is certainly true. But I think that the various spiritual practices that amount to recipes for spiritual bypass also appeal to people because they want to have a spiritual life and these practices have been presented as the only way to do it. The recipes include concepts like: your life is not real, it is just a drama that is not worth paying attention to or the truly enlightened person does not react to anything and reacting to things is a sign that you are “attached,” an undesirable thing so you have to discount your own feelings. Admittedly, when translated into Inner Bonding terms, much of what these practices offer can make sense, but for the wounded ego self who is seeking enlightenment this is a prescription for active disconnection in the name of spiritual growth.

I know many people who are deeply spiritual and at the same time totally disconnected from their inner child. Some of them have been going to God since childhood, leaving their bodies, leaving the horror of what was going on, and truly connecting with God’s love. Others seem to have learned this as adults. They are often deeply intuitive. They experience great bliss. The information they get about how much God loves them, the guidance they get about the nature of spirit are profound. I have known people whose dissociated parts could have easily written the book “Conversations with God.” Yet this has no effect on their wounded selves. They still feel empty and unsafe much of the time. They still get deeply triggered by interactions in their real lives. Since this does not make sense in the context of their spiritual devotion, the solution, in their minds, just like the solution for all of our wounded selves, is to just do more of the same in the hope that doing it enough will make everything okay.

At the same time, in Inner Bonding, connecting with love from spirit is essential and is the core ingredient in our healing. Why does one work and not the other?

The problem with going “out there” to meet God is that when we are out there, we are dissociated. We are energetically disconnected from our bodies. Nothing we “get” out there can be brought inside where it needs to go. There is no pathway. No matter how intense the experience of God’s love is out there, our abandoned inner child is just a lonely bystander and it is as if this is happening to someone else. There is no way around this.

The truth is that only we can get to where our abandoned little ones are. No other person can and without our help God can’t either. So with Inner Bonding, we are “inside” when we connect with God’s love. We are energetically connected to our inner child and to God. We, as loving adults, as the spiritually connected parents that we did not originally have, are the only conduits thru which this love can and does get in and change the experience of the hurt children inside.

Margaret Paul writes about intent, how we must be in the intent to learn about loving ourselves in order to heal. I understand this in a deeper way now. A lot of people are in the intent to access God, to experience God’s love. A lot of spiritual practices offer ways to do this. However, what we need to understand as we undertake our spiritual journey is that only by taking the job of learning how to bring love to our inner kids will it ever be possible to have the deep spiritual connection that we want. A spiritual bypass experience might provide a temporary fix, but for permanent results that translate into real healing, only having a spiritually connected loving adult, the one who truly wants the job of learning to bring love to the child inside, will do the job.

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

No, this is not a column about relationships, at least not with other people. It is a column about one of the primal ways that our inner kids cope with things that overwhelm them. The concept of dissociation is not a new one and the idea of dissociation, of leaving our bodies as a way to cope with severe emotional and physical abuse, is well known. What I did not realize until recently was that what I though of as dissociation was actually the extreme end of something that probably most children, including me, learned to do.

At Inner Bonding intensive after intensive, I was told that I was in my head, that I was “out there,” that people could not “feel me.” I struggled valiantly to change that, to move into my body, to get out of my head, to tune in. It never occurred to me that this place was a form of dissociation.

Recently, I became increasingly aware of this “out there” feeling. Although I would be talking a mile a minute, being very entertaining, etc, etc. when I tuned into what I was feeling, it was a sense of spinning, of desperately trying to change something, usually on the outside, to give me the feeling that things were under control, that I was safe. I really could not even tune into how my little girl was feeling, except that I was spinning. Exactly what I had felt at all those intensives but could not name. Suddenly I understood that my little girl was dissociating.

I tuned into her, asking her why this was happening, and I remembered being little, maybe 3, and my father roughhousing with me. He would tickle me and pin me down. Eventually, when I got hysterical enough, my mother would tell him to stop. I remembered how at first I would be angry but I could not hold onto that. I could not fight back. I realized that it was too much and I had left my body. I realized that I had a judgment on myself for doing that. I should have done better. I was able to go back and tell my little girl that she had gone to be with God and that what she did was okay.

More than that, however, I was able to bring her back to the safety of my body. I realized that once we start to dissociate, it is like there is a worm hole created and the minute things get to be too much, “Whoosh,” out we go. I could see how from then on, as soon as things got overwhelming, for example when my mother and I got into an argument, I would dissociate and there I would be, spinning, trying desperately to defend myself, but really, gone.

So what became clear to me was that once I was out there, there was nothing I could do on the outside level to get reconnected. What I had to do was to go inside and find the little girl who had split and gently hold her ankle and help her come back. Only then could I be present. I realized too that when we dissociate, we are disconnected from our own power, literally.

Recently, there was a discussion on the Inner Bonding site of the spiritual aspect of dissociation and I understood for the first time that what we call a spiritual bypass works exactly the same way. Something becomes overwhelming and the inner child whooshes out, consciously going to God and to bliss. The belief is that doing this enough will provide safety and a sense of worth because, after all, God is the source.

The problem with a spiritual bypass is this, the reason that the child has left is that there was something too overwhelming to stay present for. So this child is not okay when he or she leaves. This not okay state is NEVER dealt with. The desperate feeling is never healed. Going to God does not solve the underlying issue and for that reason there is no way that this child can ever really feel safe and loved. The child can feel that he or she has a place to escape to, which has its appeal, but the true safety of having a loving adult present, the true safety of personal power and even the experience of deep emotional connection with others is never possible.

So fundamentally, once we are conscious of this process, we all have a choice, to stay or go. Notice, without judgment, the little one who believes that he or she has no choice except to go. The challenge of having a loving adult is to provide enough safety so that your inner child can stay, so that your Inner Child can experience God’s love without having to leave. Are you willing to take the job of providing a different choice?

Making it Okay for Our Heart to Break

Inner bonding is an exciting process for identifying and healing false beliefs that inform the sometimes subtle judgments that we put on ourselves. The judgments are so automatic, so normal that they can fly under the radar for a long time. I just met a huge one.

I was in meditation and at first I was connected with the energy of love and was feeling great joy, then suddenly I had a different image of my little girl. She lay shattered, her heart completely broken in bits. I could not figure out what to do about her, what she needed, clearly something, but what? “Thanks for sharing” certainly wasn’t it! I tried to come into the scene as my loving adult self, but it was not working.

Suddenly, I decided to ask God how he saw my shattered little girl. I clearly got that he loved her completely. Instantly, I saw an old, old false belief. “If I shatter, if I fall apart because of the pain, I am not lovable and I will be alone.” Of course, that is how it happened to me and to so many others. When I was little and in great pain, when I fell apart, they did not love me, they got mad. No wonder I had come to that belief!

So, without knowing it, I had a judgment on my little girl. “If you shatter, then God does not love you, no one will help you.” This belief made it impossible to truly comfort my little girl because I was in judgment of her. As I saw the truth, I saw my the pieces of my little girl reassemble themselves in the arms of God, receiving comfort, solace and healing. She had believed that to be broken-hearted meant that she had to be alone. Now she had a different choice. It is really okay to shatter because God is there to help. It is really possible to be completely loved when she is in great pain. Most important, it is possible to be comforted, to have a safe place to go. Wow!

After I wrote the paragraphs above, I sat down to do an Inner Bonding process with my little girl. Immediately, there were intense sobs and pain in my heart. My little girl was telling me about the pain I had caused her, but I did not quite have the picture. I was reminded of a time my heart did break, when I finally connected with God’s love and was able to bring it to my husband and immediately discovered that, despite years of wanting this from me, he now wanted to be with another woman and my love was no longer enough. At that time, I sobbed and screamed and even took it down to the second step of Inner Bonding, knowing that this pain was triggering the pain of my love not being received when I was born. I never took it to the third step of finding out what I was doing.

Our protections always create the very pain we believe we are avoiding. What I was finally able to see was that my little girl was still alone with this pain. That this old, old false belief had kept me from being able to connect with spirit and bring her comfort and healing. So even though I was aware of her pain, I truly did not know what to do and that abandonment, that not being able to really help, was breaking her heart. What a relief to finally be able to help my precious little one!

What I Was Saying to My Body

In Inner Bonding work, we focus a lot on what our wounded ego self is telling us. We become aware of the inner judgments that cause us so much pain, judgments of our feelings, our words, our performance, our worth. We learn to let go of the beliefs about control that fuel our judgmental inner child and replace them with the actions of love and caring. Until a few weeks ago, I believed that I had pretty much mastered this.

I also have severe arthritis in my hips and other issues that lead to a lot of physical discomfort, especially when I walk. I am always looking for more ways to learn from and about this, so I had an energy healing session with a gifted friend. She told me “I know that you don’t judge yourself, but there is some way that you are punishing yourself and this has something to do with the pain.” “Interesting,” I thought.

The next weekend, I was getting a massage and my right leg took a lot of work before it could let go. After it was finally able to relax, my massage therapist turned to the left one. I found myself saying to my right leg, “I wish you were more like the left one.” Boing! My calf muscle jerked into spasm. After it relaxed, I tried it again. Boing! By the third time I was laughing. What on earth have I been telling my body?

I was astounded. What I was telling my body, when I felt any pain, was that it was happening because I had done something wrong – not done something enough, done it too much, whatever. The basic message was that whatever was happening was a punishment for something I did wrong. It was my mother speaking!!!! Hurting me because I was hurting. To say I could hardly believe it is an understatement! My friend was so right! I was actually punishing myself without knowing it.

In addition, I realized that I had taken care of my body exactly the way my mother did. She did take good physical care of me, crossing all the t’s and dotting all the i’s, but for her it was a job, a problem to be solved. I have been doing the same thing. I eat well, exercise as much as I am able, get enough sleep etc, but I too have done it in the same spirit as my mother. It is a job, a series of problems to be solved.

I really did not have to do much to let go of this one, just become conscious of something that was completely off my radar. Something that had given me the illusion of control where there was none. Now, when I hurt, instead of having this harsh reaction, I can go to compassion for myself and gently explore what I can do to take care of myself.

I also had an amazing experience on the plane this weekend. Normally, when I am stuffed into a cramped airplane seat, I emerge a bundle of cramped misery. This time, I focused on just taking care of myself, listening to my body, moving when I needed to. But the amazing thing was when I massaged my legs. For the first time, I was able to massage my sore muscles in a way that gave me pleasure. I had truly believed that someone else has to do it for it to feel really good. Guess what, that one is not true either! When I do it with love and compassion, it feels great. And when I get back into problem solving mode, it does not.

So, here is a reality check for you. I know that a lot of people are consciously aware of their issues around caring for their bodies but for those who think they don’t have them, you just might ask: “What am I telling my body when I feel discomfort?” “How am I explaining this discomfort?” “Do I believe that if I were better this discomfort would not exist, therefore I deserve it?” “Can I take care of myself in a way that makes me feel more loved?” I am still in the process of learning how great this new and loving relationship with my body can be. How exciting is that!

What the Animals Knew: A Shamanic Journey

As many of you probably already know, a shamanic journey is a waking trance state, a kind of intentional waking dream that can be induced by the drumming of the shaman who leads the ceremony. Often, the journey begins with a guided meditation that sets the stage for the dream. I have participated in a shamanic solstice ceremony every three months for the past two years. I am sharing this one because it was especially memorable.

First, I have to say that I am not a “visual” person. I don’t see much of anything. I know things, I feel things but visions per se are not my thing. Indeed, until I realized recently that I simply am not that way, I used to regularly “fail” at guided meditation because the minute they get to “picture yourself in a beautiful garden,” it was already hopeless. Now, I know that this will not be how it goes for me and I can allow the non-visual vision to unfold .

I had recently been reminded in some energy work with a friend that although I could feel a connection with Mother Earth, it did not feel like love. My connection with spirit, maybe with Father Sky, is very loving, but Mother Earth, not so much. So, I had set as my intention in the ceremony to connect with Mother Earth. The fact that it happened so directly, as if I had written a prescription for it, to me, is almost absurd, but it did.

I will not bore you with every step of the journey. I did experience being the Earth Mother. I did incorporate different aspects into myself, including a warrior (Greek or Roman), a gorgeous women (who was not physically gorgeous but was gorgeous nonetheless), an incredibly primal sexy woman and an innocent child. I briefly wondered how I was going to be all that at once, but that was not the point of the journey. I guess I am all that I also experience being loved by the fields and the rivers but that did not clear my issue with the Earth Mother.

In the journey, we were instructed to start out at the mouth of a cave and then walk thru a field and along a river. As I walked along the river, which was very happy that I was there, I was suddenly greeted by a large group of animals. I cannot say what animals they were, except a mixture of brownish mammals, mid-sized, like in a Disney cartoon, but not cartoonish. They were incredibly excited to see me. They wanted to show me something and they were so eager that we were all running. I could feel that they knew something that they wanted me to know.

Finally, they brought me to the Earth Mother. I cannot describe her (of course) but I knew I was in her presence. I fell to the ground sobbing. I felt grief and a kind of surrender. Suddenly, in the middle of the grief, I knew what it was that the animals were trying to tell me!!

Here is the best way I can explain what was really a knowing. Imagine a cat has kittens. Indeed, long ago my cats had 120 kittens before I got over needing to see this happen. I understand this better now. A cat has kittens and she totally takes care of them. She takes great pleasure in them. She feeds them, cleans them, cuddles them and totally mothers them. She is a representative of the Earth Mother. The mother cat automatically teaches them that the Earth Mother’s love can be trusted. And that is what the animals knew that they were trying to tell me. Exactly that. The Earth Mother’s love can be trusted!

I understood how our mothers were too wounded to carry the energy of the Earth Mother to most of us. We don’t get the care that we are supposed to get. Maybe that is what the Fall in the Bible is about, the loss of the connection with the Earth Mother? Maybe this is why so many people don’t love her enough to take care of her?

So the animals know about this connection with the Earth Mother automatically without thinking about it. They carry it in their energy. I can feel it now and be reminded of it in my cats. They just know. And I realized that I can carry this energy to my inner child and rewrite her story. That I can teach her this truth. The Earth Mother’s love can be trusted.

As a result of this experience, I now find myself in great joy. The trees are blooming right now and every tree for me is just one more reminder of this great, new-found trust in the love of the Earth Mother. What an extraordinary and surprising blessing!

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